NOTHING can be proven if it just goes down like this...

Like for sure one thing i figure my parents dunno how to handle is how to discipline. I just find it really unfair that it been nearly 3 weeks and yeah maybe i need more time to show them stuff but come on its seriously getting onto my nerves a lot! I can understand that maybe 3 weeks have been a small unit but to be within these three weeks i was never allowed to go out, go eat, have my phone, go out to seriously study... like.. i really feel like all my freedom has left and that there really is nothing anymore... i just can't satisfy myself so that everyday i have to play games and msn ppl... i need to satisfy myself to be able to focus again.. its a system i have been having for the past times... i can't do this.. i seriously am gona crack soon... this is totally off my line... cmon.. even my phone that NORMALLY wakes me up so i get to skl on time is taken away... and my normal alarm clock dun wake me up because i really can't find it useful at all. so no i got to bother my family and tell them to wake me up. if they just give it back then they can sleep and so i can wake up properly.. is like a everybody wins type of thing.. just ARGH! i can't stand all this for long.. i just wish to let them know the true me can't deal with such.. and i figured i really need to control myself before i become more rebellious due too all this boundaries i am having, naturally teens like me who have a sudden boundary tends to become more rebellious and stubborn.. but i realize if i become like that.. then the boundaries are gona last longer.. so

KEEP IN MIND SIAN STAY CALM!

ANOTHER FEW DAYS LATER :P
hahahaha i am surprised that my mom opened a atm card for me :D which makes me kinda happy hahaha i no its retarded.. but i sum how really like everything that is given to me :S guess thats y i shop so much XD



+ i got new shoes too :D

OMFG!!

******OMFG TMR! exams are coming>< im so effed up! and scared to shitz!!!so sad..

******and STILL NO PHONE, Sandeep i also apologize for my mothers SMS XP

******+ its been 2 weeks for me being clean :D hahahahha CONGRATS TO ME! XD anyways yeah dats it :P

****** o TODAY IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY :) from 6 pm onwards.. its going to be a new start again! for me :P

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DA DUMMM!!!! my braces are FINALLY OFF!!! you seriously have no idea how it feels like to finally have them off!!! Their like the new OMG to me hahahaha. My mouth feels so smooth and soft again :D no more metal shit in me XD BUHAHAHAHAH!!!



Exams
Today was our first examination on English and Mother Tongue, it kinda feels funny because... i have never seen this noisy school sound so silent before hahahahah! but it was awesome! My English exam was ... um.. messy, that's the only word i can really describe it. I hope i Passed to be honest my grammar and all that.. is not what i would call PERFECT. for Mother Tongue hahaha it was quite funny because... i only did the MQ and then... i fell asleep for the rest of the time BECAUSE i really dunno wt to do.. like seriously... i have no idea what the heck their asking me... i just dun wan2 do it TxT i think i slept for.. wt? 45 min.? GREAT TIME to have a nap.

AFTER EXAMS
BRICE, DARRYL, CLARENCE MORRIS DEM ALL... were so mean lo... bully me XD Darryl took my kai wen key chain off my bag and stated throwing it around and because wa.. so many of them.. no chance....>< and nobody helped me!!! it took me for ever to get it back
until i bit Clarences' arm :P i den went to j8 to buy my mummy a gift and stuff to make her gift. when i got time I'll take pics n upload dem XD hahah go ask clarence if u dun believe me X:P

HAHAHAHA LMAO! wtf!

I MISS MY PHONE><

recently.. i dunno gotten into a lot of shit XD but hey. i wonder... wen did i never? XP the good news is that i am more guai now :)

i kinda feel bad.. because my step dad.. i feel like he really doesn't love me anymore.. i feel like he doesn't wan2 love such a girl.. but.. i dunno.. no matter what i'd still love him as my dad.. and even if it was my fault at first.. i am TRY HARD>< ++++++oil!!!! :) [in Cantonese it means jia you] bet ya didn't no that right?! XD

i still feel quite weird.. after what has happened :) but i really really wan2 thank all the friends that got my back when i fell really hard... :D thank ya'll!! i bet u no who u guyz are :D

FRIENDS are really worth having and i dun regret ever knowing ya'll cause surprisingly even the ones that are just a bit younger than u can actually understand who u really are.

MUAH!!! LOVE AND KISSES YA'LL
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

not much info to give because its tooooooo JUICY XD